In the whirlwind of marriage, I found myself navigating undiscovered sufferings!
My journey with anxiety it isn’t easy to open up about, but I am sharing it now as I know that mental health is the key to inner peace. I am writing this for the awareness of people around the world. And to help someone who is dealing with the same issue.
I was diagnosed with panic disorder as I was having panic attacks a couple of times in a month. You know, those moments when your heart feels like it’s racing a marathon and every little thing feels like it’s closing in on you? It felt like my body and mind were in completely different wavelengths. Later I discovered that as my sleep cycle shifted and my priorities transformed, anxiety sneak into my life like a shadow, casting doubt and uncertainty on what was once familiar.
That wasn’t enough, alongside I was struggling with anxiety, it was very difficult to gulp after marriage, that I am not living with my homies anymore. This new chapter is full of excitement and blissfulness but your mind always runs through negative and worrying thoughts more than positive ones. Although! I got transferred into a different university and got my desired field which was again a cherishing moment and I was excited at that moment. But at the same time, I was dealing with a new home already. And now I was exploring new university as well the jumble of emotions caught me.
During all of this emotional turmoil, there used to be one constant source of comfort for me “my cat”. My ultimate stress reliever. Whether it was cuddle sessions or simply having her purring by my side, she had a special way of calming my nerves and grounding me in the present moment. And now I don’t meet her that much.
Anxiety is more than just feeling nervous or stressed; it’s a complex emotion that can manifest in various ways. For me, it was a constant feeling of unease, a nagging voice in the back of my mind questioning every decision and action. And it was way too much disturbing, although I am a happy wife and have very supportive in laws.
I talked to a therapist and discussed the issue, she suggested coping strategies that helped me achieving my goals and get more focus on household duties. I learned the potential of self-care and mindfulness. From practicing deep breathing exercises to journaling my thoughts. From embracing therapy and mindfulness to navigating the ups and downs of panic disorders, my journey towards healing has been transformative. Overcoming panic disorder and anxiety wasn’t easy, but with time, I found comfort in my husband’s home, understanding the importance of building our own family while cherishing our roots. It’s a journey of resilience, growth, and finding balance. Now, I learned to accept the journey and trust in my strength to overcome any obstacle.